Feeling Lost?

I feel it again. That surge of anger that stems from confusion, from just. not. knowing. I feel lost.
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It rises and lowers like the tide in an estuary. I never know if I’ll sink up to my shins in goopy sand, or if the surface will hold my tentative steps. I just don’t know. I feel lost.

Anger surfs close to confusion like the tears that surf under my smile. My heart squeezes in pain. I can’t tell if I’m helping or enabling the friend my tender heart yearns for. I feel lost.

I’ve never navigated this route before—this helping someone whose sense of lostness runs so much deeper than mine. I KNOW how to find help. He waits just a prayer-breath away.

Praying for an Answer

But how can I transmute my knowledge to one who struggles just to make it through the day without believing every. single. lie. of the accuser? I feel lost. (click to tweet)

And so I do what I do best. I pray. I reach out to the only One who can pierce the darkness that my friend flounders in. I pray for the words that will help. I pray for my own sense of lostness, confusion and helplessness.

God might not have chosen me to give the words that will help my friend—but I can pray that that person shows up soon. In God’s time. (click to tweet)

I might feel lost, but I know He finds me in my confusion and hurt. He will find my friend, too.

“So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time.” James 4:8—the Message

Anita currently teaches English to 7th-12th graders. She describes herself as a 'recovering cancer caregiver' who gives thanks daily that her husband has been cancer-free for ten years.

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  • Hey, followed you on FMF! Sounds like your brain is as lost as mine right now for some similar reasons. This one was definitely a hard one for me to write and I am sure it was for you as well. Thank you for sharing your heart and your faith. 🙂
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  • I love that we have the power to pray….to just run to God whenever we feel lost. Lost for ourselves or with helping a friend. Prayer can be often overlooked, at least in my life, but God has been showing me just how much He is there and how valuable that simple act of talking to Him really is. Thanks for sharing your heart. I pray you will find the words to speak to your friend that are directly from God…that He would continue to use you to minister to this person’s life, and would soften their heart towards Him. Blessings!

  • Praying really is the best because it works the best. God works in amazing ways. And once we see how He works, we learn to trust. It is sure hard to wait sometimes though! Found you from FMF http://bellesbazaar-heather.blogspot.com/2014/06/lost-5-minute-prompt.html

    • Thanks for stopping by, Heather! And you’re right–prayer IS the best–but being a control junkie makes it hard to remember how ‘active’ prayer really is ;)!

  • I love the word “estuary.”

    • It is a pretty cool word, isn’t it?! I’m using it in tomorrow’s post, too ;).

  • Beautiful words. I am feeling the same way about a friend right now. Thank you for writing this!
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  • I know that lost anger feeling all to well. Praying we both seek Him in times like this.
    Amy P Boyd recently posted…Lost {Five-Minute Friday}My Profile

    • I’ll pray for you as well–and I greatly appreciate the prayers :)!