Living In Between

Living In Between My daughter will stand in between Pedro and I in exactly nine days and when the pastor asks, “Who gives this woman in marriage?” we will say, “We do!”

Meanwhile, in the days that march inexorably towards July 7,  I struggle in between joy, frantic worry that I’ll never finish everything on time, and a deep sense of gratitude that our oldest baby will have BOTH parents at her wedding…

The dress is in between what it was when I made it and what it will become for my daughter’s wedding.

It almost didn’t happen.  Twelve years ago, Pedro’s non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma relapsed (he’d only been in remission for a few weeks) with a vengeance–this time, it crossed the blood-brain barrier and entered his spinal fluids.  He lost forty pounds in two weeks.  He had excruciating headaches and the muscles in his face froze.  For the next five months, his life hung in the balance as doctors pumped him full of ‘rescue chemo’ and I traveled in between Bozeman, MT and San Francisco, CA each time he started ‘circling the drain’.

Each time, God intervened.

And so I set aside my worries (will I finish remodeling the wedding dress before we leave tomorrow?  How will two college students survive on tiny incomes during their last two quarters of college? What will we forget as we load the van for the trip?) and pause to speak my gratitude to God who brought our little family through the trial–different from what we were before, but stronger, more faithful and definitely more grateful than we had been.

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God is good.
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Anita currently teaches English to 7th-12th graders. She describes herself as a ‘recovering cancer caregiver’ who gives thanks daily that her husband has been cancer-free for ten years.

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  • This is great to read. What a testimony. God is really good ! Wishing you all a great and blessed wedding.

    • Anita Ojeda

      Thank you! I’m looking forward to it (and to relaxing a little!).

  • Thank you for sharing this story. I am happy that both of you will be at your child’s wedding. My grandpa, who I grew up with as the father figure in my life and who I consider to be my dad, had passed a year and a half before my wedding. On my bouquet I had a charm made with his picture because I wanted him to still be there to “walk” me down the aisle. I miss him so but I know he is with our Father now.

    Wedding planning is stressful, especially the last few days before the event (I had just went through this, hehe) but believe me, on the day itself it will go by fast. Cherish every moment, enjoy the love being celebrated that day, and exult in that moment that both you and Pedro can say “We do” together. 🙂 Have a happy family wedding celebration!

    • Anita Ojeda

      I’m so sorry that you lost your grandpa before he could walk you down the aisle–but what a creative way to honor him on your special day! Thank you for the encouragement :).

  • E W Wright

    “I’ve lived in between diagnosis and deliverance. I can wait patiently for what God brings next. God is good.” So true. Thanks for your beautiful post.

  • First of all, my daughter’s birthday is July 7! Its amazing how a crisis really changes our perspective.
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    • July 7 is a great day, isn’t it?! And yes, crisis really helps put things into perspective!

  • A beautiful story about how grateful we can be for Gods amazing blessings. Thanks for sharing such a beautiful story and I hope the wedding was wonderful and you didn’t forget to pack anything.
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    • The wedding was beautiful and fun! What I forgot, I didn’t need ;).

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