Faint

The doors of the hospital whooshed open and I nodded at Pedro’s intern who headed out as I headed in. She smiled and stopped to chat. “That was quite the experience last night, wasn’t it?” I nodded numbly. Pedro had started convulsing just hours after receiving his first chemotherapy treatment… Read more“Faint”

Care

I glanced anxiously at the sky as the thunderheads built up and menaced the airspace surrounding the airport.  Pedro HAD to make it on the air ambulance flight.  If he didn’t, I feared the hospital bed awaiting him at the University of California Medical Center in San Francisco (UCSF) would… Read more“Care”

Miserable Comfort

Right before my caregiving journey, I found out that a dear lady and her husband (parents of Pedro’s students) were in the midst of their own cancer journey. He had prostrate cancer—and his health and healing became a matter of daily prayer for me—even during my darkest hours. Even though… Read more“Miserable Comfort”

Abound

Dear Caregiver, I know how frightening and fragmented your life feels. Nothing remains the same as BC (before caregiving). Sure, you try to put on a strong front with those who ask how you’re doing—after all, the focus of prayers and petitions should be on the one you care for…. Read more“Abound”

God Offers Comfort in Affliction

After my experience with God’s hand on my shoulder, I returned to Pedro’s hospital room, comforted and ready to face whatever came next. A few days later, the doctor came in to announce that the chemotherapy regimen advised by Pedro’s California oncologist, Dr. Mirda, would have to be put off for… Read more“God Offers Comfort in Affliction”

God’s Unfailing Love Provides Comfort for Caregivers

What Does Unfailing Love Really Mean? Never Fails. Never Quits. Always works. Always there. Never Changes. Never wavers. That’s the kind of love you can rely on, dear Caregiver, as you journey through your season of caregiving. But sometimes, it seems as if God is distant and not interested in… Read more“God’s Unfailing Love Provides Comfort for Caregivers”

There is Hope for Your Suffering

Dear Caregiver; I know your confusion and despair. I’ve sat with Deep Sadness and he makes an uncomfortable companion—especially when he invites his buddy Hopeless to join us. Everyone seems to focus on the one you selflessly care for—conversation revolves around the latest tests, remedies, prescriptions, progress and setbacks. And… Read more“There is Hope for Your Suffering”

Inadequate

Inadequate. Incredibly inadequate and unable to perform the simplest tasks. That’s how I felt after the initial adrenalin rush that carried us through Pedro’s cancer diagnosis and first few rounds of treatment. The last quarter of school had progressed in a haze of lack of sleep, worry and multitasking. I… Read more“Inadequate”

God Provides a New Song Even in Times of Trial

A New Song Doesn’t Sound Like a Familiar Whine In preparation for this series, I’ve spent time this last week thumbing through my journals from my season of caregiving. I thought I’d find minute details of what I did each day, and the state of Pedro’s health and outlines of… Read more“God Provides a New Song Even in Times of Trial”

Rod and Staff

Dear Caregiver, Whether your journey leads through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, or just a deep, narrow valley of quotidian duties that never seem to change and never seem to end, God himself offers comfort. When my season of caregiving began, I felt like a sheep—clueless and lacking… Read more“Rod and Staff”