Running on Empty

Feeling worn out with powdery bones? There's hope. via @caregivermomThe week has been a whirlwind and I read that the five-minute-Friday prompt is DEAR. My mind is blank as my thoughts swirl with the horrible email received this week and the knowledge that people I love are hurting and sick.

Oppressing my thoughts are the schedules I must keep and the assignments I must create and the grades I must give. Worry and duty hang over my head. My anxiety rises and I feel some of those old feelings of shakiness and have difficulty breathing and I know with 100% certainty that there is no way I can write about anything “dear” after having experienced this week.

I get up from my computer, because really, what’s the point of trying to write. Trying to think. Trying to focus on something “dear” when responsibility comes first. I stretch out in the middle of my living room with my nose pressed into the carpet (that needs vacuuming), hiding my face from the things left undone today.

“Dear God.” I breathe into the dusty carpet. “I’ve got nothing. This week has been too much.”

My dear child.
I’ve got this. I’ve got you. Relax.

And suddenly I know what to write. I praise God for how often He holds me and for His whispered reassurances and for the love with which He holds me.

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  • Liz

    I felt the same thing with this week’s word and I took a similar breath before it flowed from my fingertips.

    Thank you for sharing your week and the words God spoke to you. Too often I try to handle things when I need to let go and let God take the reigns.

    Glad to be your FMF neighbor!
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  • God does indeed hold us especially when we think we have nothing left to give. Beautiful post!
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  • Bless you….I can’t write about dear either….I am not feeling anything dear at all.
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  • I love that! I love your complete openness and vulnerability friend. So many times I’ve tried to find the words, only to end up curled-up in His hands holding on to His Words. Love this! Thanks for sharing FMF friend!
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  • How beautiful and transparent! It is when we allow God to fill us and write through us that the most lovely things are tapped out. He is so DEAR! Stopped by from #FMFparty!
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  • Oh, you write of the process of emptying yourself out –so well. Thank you for your honest. It encourages me. What a beautiful post from a beautiful heart.
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  • And you are dear to us, friend … Hugs for you this evening. And may His peace wash over you in gentle, grace-filled waves.
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