Be Still and Let God Fight

I thought that once my children were out of the toddler stages, life would become easier. I thought that once they could do more for themselves I wouldn’t be doing as much for them.

I thought when my son finished cancer treatment I could “return to normal” and have time for myself. I thought if I didn’t teach full-time I could have time to write and think and process. I thought that as my children spent less time at home it would mean my home would stay clean.

Are you done laughing?

Yes, I freely admit it. I was delusional.

But I was happy in my delusion and often I try to continue those thoughts. Someday I’ll have all the time I want to write. Someday I will have a clean house. Someday I will do nothing but read. Someday I will only do exactly what I WANT to do for days on end.
Wait. That doesn’t sound perfect. Because to do those things I wouldn’t be running off to watch my daughter’s basketball game. I wouldn’t be driving my son to practice. I wouldn’t be getting my daughter to early morning rehearsal. I wouldn’t be hearing my kids laugh hysterically as they chase each other down the hall. I wouldn’t hear loud piano playing and raucous singing. I would miss the family eating together and the grumbles that it’s “too early for showers.”

A mom’s life is chaotic and hectic and beautiful.

A couple of years ago I found a new favorite verse: “The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

I love it. God tells me to be still. I don’t have time to be still. Except in my head.
I can worry and fuss and wish things were different. Or I can still my rushing thoughts and remind myself that “God’s got this.” And I can relax.

That doesn’t mean I don’t drop everything to go get my boy’s forgotten lunch. It doesn’t mean I skip the three hour drive for Parent Weekend at college while my husband stays home with the other two for their SA masquerade party. It doesn’t mean I don’t scramble for that last minute permission slip or turn around for the homework left on the printer. It does mean I only have time to write during five-minute-Fridays because I barely have five minutes to sit in my bathrobe as I holler over my shoulder that the lunch is on the counter and remind them to get a coat.

But I can relax. A mom’s life is chaotic and hectic and beautiful, but God will fight for me.

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  • Liz

    Loved reading this! I used the same quote today in my own post. Beautiful reminder. I have three toddlers. I worry constantly, but I am trying to continually remind myself of the beauty mixed in within the stress and long days. Prayers to you. Blessings to your son. And may God open the way to you…

  • Liz

    My theme this year has been to Let Go and Let God. I think this is another great way to put it, Be Still and Let God Fight.

    Good word!
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  • Hey Carol …

    Sometimes delusional work, ya know? Kind of gets us through the day.

    I love that verse from Exodus. It takes the pressure off ourselves to endlessly be all and frenetically do all. And allow God to do what He does best.

    Be God.

    It’s the be still part that can be oh so difficult.

    May Sabbath’s sweet stillness somewhere deep within be yours, friend …
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  • Found you through Barbara’s blog….so glad I did….loved your post….*beautiful* photo! Will keep my eyes pealed for your FMF posts (I’m an FMF-er too)….