Longing for Heaven

Longing for heavenMy grandma used to say how much she longed for heaven
And I would look at her with wide eyes while thinking of all the possibilities my life held
But then my neighbor and classmate died of a brain tumor in third grade
And I thought that was unfair – he was so much fun
And another friend got shot by a crazy family member
Life doesn’t get worse than that
My dad used to say how much he longed for heaven
And then he got cancer (three kinds) and so did my aunt
And much later so did my little son
All three beat the cancer but it left scars that are inside and out
And show themselves when least expected
My maid-of-honor and college roommate told me how she longed for heaven
And I looked at her with wide eyes while hugging her goodbye
knowing we would never see each other again on this earth
Because cancer gobbled up her every reserve
I miss her giggle and visit her grave before my school reunions
I’ve shared with my students how much I long for heaven
And they look at me with wide eyes while thinking of all their plans
But I’ve stood at some gravesides of students—all way too young to already be gone
Remembering their plans and their smiles
And thinking this is not the life God had planned for us
I tell my kids I long for heaven.
And they look at me with wide eyes while wondering about their possibilities
And thinking they will never be old enough to yearn in such a way
And I pray they are right
I long for heaven
So that this next generation doesn’t have to understand why.

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  • Wow, Carol! Those last two lines are super powerful. Me too!
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  • Beautiful. Touched my heart. I, too, long for heaven. And I am a recovering caregiver as well. My beloved just finished his journey here on earth. And I long for heaven!
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    • Paula – I am very sorry for your loss and look forward to heaven with you. Prayers, my friend, thanks for stopping by.
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  • Thanks for sharing those thoughts, Carol. May we all long for heaven and live like today might be our last.
    Got a friend battling cancer, way too young, caught between longing to be here, with her grown children, to be at her son’s wedding in January, to see her yet-to-be grandchildren, but also longing to be in heaven. One day, we won’t have to long any more.
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  • Wow~ this is stunning. The repetition, the narrative, and the powerful ending. Amazing post!
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    • Karen, thank you so much! You never know what will pour out when you start that five-minute-friday prompt! 🙂
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  • Lovely writing, Carol. Absolutely beautiful! So glad I followed you at Inspire Me Mondays. Have a blessed week!
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  • This was so beautiful and sad, Carol!! Thanks for sharing your heart.
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